Happy Valentine's Day

Today has been awesome so far..cravings are in check!

Since today is Valentine's day..I thought I'd take a minute to tell everyone a little bit about my "Valentine" and love of my life. My husband, Nick, and I have been together since I was 15 years old~I was in 9th grade~the year was 1999. We actually started dating at a marching band festival, and have been inseparable ever since. A couple of years later, came our first son, Colby. We were still very young when Colby was born..teenagers and in high school..but we made it through it, when everyone else said we wouldn't..we did it!! (It was rough at times but I wouldn't trade Colby for anything in the world! And I think it made Nick and I stronger as a couple.) We made our commitment to one another official and married on November 3, 2006 in the Church with lots of family and friends there to celebrate it with us (standing room only). Our wedding day was everything a girl could dream of~I still get butterflies thinking about it! Here is a picture from our special day.. (Colby was such a ham:)

Three years after being married, we had our second son, Corbin, who will be turning 2 this Saturday. I can't imagine my life without my husband or kids....I love my little family with my whole heart..we may not have gotten started the traditional way, and alot of people probably saw us as screw ups who would never make it...but here we are 12 years later..Happy & still in LOVE!

We recently celebrated our 5 year anniversary by going on a Cruise...no kids..just Nick and I. It was great to have just "us" time but I did miss my kiddos terribly and couldn't wait to get home and see them....but at the same time, I'm eager to start planning our 10 year anniversary get a way!

FMM: Before Phots

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FMM: Before Photos

1. Are you on a weight-loss journey? Have you lost weight in the past? Are you trying to lose it now? Yes..to all of the above :)
   
2. Do you like being in pictures, or do you shy away from the camera? Definatley shy away from the camera
3. Does looking at old photos of yourself motivate you? It does..It helps me realize that yes, I have alot more work to do but I'm getting there slowly
   
4. Weight-loss bloggers, do you post progress pictures on your blog? Yes
5. Will you share a before photo with us (even if you don’t have an after yet?) Sure..I was about 300 pounds in this one, taken August of 2008:

and in this one I am 227 pounds, taken February 2012:

It may take me awhile, but I'll get to my goal one of these days:)

Doing this for Me

The past couple of days, I haven't been logging or ANYTHING!! Not eating right, not exercising, not tracking, not blogging....and Yes and it sucks pretty bad now that I sit back and think about it.

I was on a roll, really I was..I was doing awesome getting my workouts in and staying within my calorie range then this weekend got here and PooF~it all went away! Three days away is long enough, It's time to get back on track! I screwed up, I'm trying not to dwell on it too much, tomorrow is a new day!

I am doing this for ME...for me to live longer..for me to be happy..for me to fell pretty..for me to be healthier..for me to have more confidence..for me to be able to play outside with my family...for me to be happy with ME.

I need to LOVE me, today~not tomorrow~TODAY.

I'm going to try to turn in early because my little one has been waking up at wee hours of the night (not really sure why, maybe dreams). But I do hope to get some reading in tonight...trying to finish up Made to Crave and I'm going to download Jesus Calling :)

~Thought for the day~

It's kindda hard to read towards the bottom..but it says.
Exercise to be fist, not "skinny"
Eat to nourish your body
and always ignore the haters, doubters, and unhealthy examples that were once feeding you
You are worth more that you realize

**I don't really have any haters (at least I don't think), may have some doubters (but they don't say it to my face), I do have some unhealthy examples (but there's nothing I can really do about that)...but you know, now that I think about it..I (me..yea, the same person I'm doing all this for) is my biggest hater/doubter/unhealthy example.

Fashion Friday

Yesterday was kind of a rough day, temptation and will power wise...but I pushed and prayed through it. I made it through the day without binging or splurging! I did have a little red beans and rice for supper instead of salad like I had planed, but I was still within my calorie range.

Here is my "motivational" outfit(s)~couldn't decide on just one. One of these days I will be able to pull off these looks. (Well probably not the hills...but everything else)

All of this came from Lane Bryant

What's every one's plan for this weekend..Well this is how mine is going to go..Clean, do laundry, go walking Saturday and Sunday (if its not raining too much~has been raining all day today), do yard work (if it drys up), watch my Godchild for the first time (yes~his mom is a little protective of him), CHURCH, do some cooking..oh yes..and eat some CRAWFISH. Yummy!! My wonderful husband is even going to go to the pond and catch them himself!! (We usually buy them but at this time in the crawfish season, they are really expensive, so he is going to go his family's pond and get some for us.) I looked up the calories, and they really aren't as bad as I thought. I just won't have the corn and potatoes that us "cajuns" like to have with them.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I know I plan on it!

~Thought for the day~

~This was me yesterday..not really stressed but overwhelmed with the control that food has over me right now~

Will Power

The other day my thought of the day went something like this..It takes Will Power to get started and habit to keep it going. I'm struggling with the whole Will Power thing today, I haven't eaten anything I shouldn't (yet), but I'm constantly arguing with my self..I'm to the point of almost crying. Is it ever going to get better?

~Thought for the day~

**And I just want to take a second to apologize for my post about weight loss surgery the other day, I didn't mean to offend anyone~guess maybe I should have done more research and asked more questions instead of assuming that bc you have the surgery everything is so much easier.

Weigh In Wednesday

It's made it's way here once again..Weigh in Wednesday, that is.. and the scale isn't exactly my bff at the moment, so I'll make this quick. I'm still at 227. Which I'm not thrilled about, but I'm not really upset either. Sure, I would have loved to have seen a 2 pound loss (or even a one pound loss) but with everything that went on this past weekend and having trouble getting to the gym (pretty much everything called LIFE), I'm just glad I didn't gain :)

This is a journey to a new & healthier me... not just a diet. I'm trying to figure things out as I go so it may take me a while, but one day I'll make it there.

As I mentioned in a post a couple of weeks ago, I've been sort of struggling spiritually and I've been avoiding church to not have to deal with certain people...I've been avoiding prayer because I was so upset by everything that was said... But I've come to realize that I'm not hurting anyone but myself by doing this. So I've made up my mind that it's time for a change in this part of my life also. I downloaded a new book last night called Made to Crave..I'm only about 2 chapters into it, but pretty much it's about how we were all made to CRAVE...but not to crave food..we were made to crave God, and it gives pointers of things to do & things to pray when certain feeling start setting in... like cravings/discouragement/emotions/helplessness get the best of you.. I am going back to my church Sunday with an open heart and mind (though I will not bring my little boy, not ready for that yet~but maybe one day)

~Thought for the day~

Rambling

I have a bunch of different topics..really alot of rambling... that I want to touch on today..so lets get started:)

I know I've said it a couple of times..and I'm going to say it again...that I would LOVE to have weight loss surgery. Just seems like the easy thing to do. I mean hey, you pay a COUPLE thousand dollars...have a 3 hour surgery...go on a liquid diet for a couple of weeks..and WAALA...you have it...you are 30 pounds lighter in a couple of months and at your goal weight in about 6 months. But It's not going to happen..my husband and I have talked about it time and time again, and he has this belief in me that I can do it, so it may take me for ever, but hopefully one of these days I'll get there.

~Found this on Pinterest and thought it was Perfect for this subject~

The past couple of days...I've been sort of struggling, ever since we went on that Mardi Gras run this past weekend, I can't get back on track. I mean, I didn't do too bad but I just can't get back into my routine. I haven't walked or went to the gym ONE time this week so far. My little boy has been either getting up really early in the mornings or waking up a couple of times during the night, which makes me super tired & I end up not going to the gym and puts me running late so I don't get to work in enough time to to go walking with the girls I work with. I even had TWO pieces of King Cake today..I know, right..WHAT was I thinking. But that is IT..I'm saying it TODAY, It is time to get back on track!
*I may have to start hitting the gym at 7 or 8 on the nights that my husband doesn't have to
work to get my workouts in.

Awhile back I had posted my goals and rewards...Well, my reward for reaching my 50 pound goal was that I would get to go on a weekend getaway with my husband...and even though here lately it seems like I'll never reach it (because it is taking me forever just to get to my 10 pound goal) I have to do it before October 4th. Last week I bought tickets to the Red Hot Chili Pepers for my husband for his birthday. He is totally excited! It is in New Orleans (a couple of hours away) so we plan on finding a sitter and making a weekend out of it. So I need to kick it up a notch or two...or maybe 3!

My husband is always telling me how beautiful and sexy I am..but I hopefully by the time October gets here, I will be knocking him off his feet :)

I found this on Pinterest (incase, you haven't realized a trend yet, I have a little obsession with Pinterest)...and next time I run to Wal-Mart I will be picking up the things to make this:

This will give me a visual of what I have lost and what I have to go :)

Something else that I will get on my trip to Wal-Mart is a canister/jar for is for a reward jar. I saw this on a fellow bloggers post..this is how hers goes & I'm going to do the same:
*Workout at least 3 times a week & my reward is $5 (this will come in handy when I reach my
goal of losing 30 pounds and I get a day of shopping with my bestie)

I've been really thinking about my thought of the day from yesterday...A huge part of losing weight is believing you can do it and realizing it is not going to happen over night...This is not a diet for me...it is a life style change, it may be a struggle, it will be hard, I will be tempted, I will have bad days, things will come up & I won't be able to go the the gym, it will take time, but I must not give up..I CAN DO IT!

~Thought for the day~

*Goal for this week..spend more time with GOD*