I can sit here and say...I have no clue how this happened~but the thing is that I know exactly how it happened...I let some set backs and my emotions get in the way. It all started Wednesday when I talked to my orthopedist about the pain that I had been having since doing the C25K and he is advised me to stay off my knee and no vigorous exercise for a couple of days .....then there is the discomfort to my lower abdomen area which I had an ultra sound for on Thursday and didn't show anything abnormal, so I'm not real sure what is going on.
But here's the thing...I let all of these things that I have going on get to me and it all really got under my skin and even in my head...I start having all of these thoughts: Why am I doing this? I'm never going to reach my goal anyway...Maybe I'm just one of those people that are meant to be fat...Everybody loves me the way I am so why change??..(and on and on) which leads me into my "forget about it attitude". My "forget about it attitude" went alot like this this time..I'm going to eat what ever I want but I am going to track it (because I have this weird obsession with tracking my calories for some reason) So Friday night I had fried catfish with fried eggplant...then Saturday I had BBQ.
I've said over and over again since January 1 that I'm going to stop making excuses, but I'm still doing it! The reality is that this is Life...and it is my life...and I need to stop using all of the circumstances going on with me and around me as excuses to over eat! I'm sure had I not had the fried stuff Friday night and then all the BBQ food yesterday, I would have met my goal for this week..but I let everything get to me and went into my "forget about it attitude".
This is what I need to remember at these times I feel like giving up~That if God brings me to it, He will bring me through it! He did not promise days without pain or sorrow, but he did promise strength for the day and comfort for the tears. On days that I feeling like throwing in the towel I need to call on Him and His strength to get me through it.
Something else that I need to remind myself of often is~ I don't need to have cheat days because this is not another diet, it is a lifestyle change and I am tired of cheating my life.
And remember we all have our moments of weakness...but keep in mind that weakness is NOT defeat!!
I need to take pride in how far I have come and faith in how far I can go. It did not take a couple of months to put all of this on soo it will not come off over night!!
Pounds lost since starting blog: 35
Pounds lost since 1/1/12: 11
Total inches lost: 12.5
Week One RFSC Goals and Outcomes:Weight Loss Goal: Lose 2 pounds (Not Met, only lost 1 pound)
Non-scale Victory Goal: Lose an inch (Not met~somehow managed to go up 1.5 inches)
Exercise Goal: 50 sit ups a day (Met)
Nutritional Goal: Try something new (Met~tried some kiwi, pretty good stuff)
Week Two RFSC Goals:
Weight Loss Goal: Lose 2 pounds
Non-scale Victory Goal: Lose 2 inches
Exercise Goal: complete week 1 of C25k~this is something that I really, really, really want to do~so I hope my knee doesn't start giving me trouble again this week
Nutritional Goal: 2 1200 calorie days
Beginning of challenge measurements:
End of week 1 measurements:
Hips: 50.5 (0)
Arms: 16 (+1)
Thighs: 32 (0)
Breast: 44.5 (0)
Neck: 15.5 (+1)
Total inches lost: +1.5
~Thought for the day~