Wednesday, March 28, 2012

How goes it??

I'd thought I'd just take a minute to see how everyone is doing on there first week of the challenge....and to actually share some new/updates with everyone..I as, you know, have been trying to do the C25K, and yesterday during my first jog, I started hurting something offal~but I was determined to not stop and go right back home so I walked the rest of the way instead of throwing in the towel all together and by the time I got back home I was hurting pretty bad. Then when I woke up this morning it was felling ok, so I decided to do the shred and I was able to do the ENTIRE thing but I'm paying for it now! What the heck! I've talked to my orthopedist and he is advising me to stay off my knee and no vigorous exercise for the next couple of days :(

Then to make matters worse, I've been having alot of discomfort to my lower abdomen area for the past couple of days so my doctor having me go do an ultra sound at the hospital tomorrow, he said he thinks it may be cysts on my ovaries :(

All of this news came to me within 3 hours of each exercise for a couple of days and I may have cysts. Really? Why does this have to happen right when I'm in such a good groove with my eating and exercise! Soooo what did I do? Instead of doing what I should have done~which would be calling on GOD and my friends at this time of need~I turned to food! Like I always have! (I thought I had worked through all of this, but guess I was wrong.) Now, grant it...I did track everything I ate (broccoli shrimp, egg roll, combination fried rice, and (yes there is even more) a crab cheese wanton) and I'm still within my ranges for the day, but I feel horrible! I ate way too much than what I've been eating at one time!
To make matters worse, my poor husband came and had lunch with me and he tried talking me out of eating everything that I was eating~but I was in that pity party mood for myself~and told him to just leave me alone.

Here I am..I have all this support...I'm doing good for 2 straight weeks...and I'm going to let my emotions get the best of me!

The quote "Weakness is not defeat" (from MTC) keeps running through my head but at the moment I feel like a total failure.

Here are my new goals for week 1 since I am out of commission for a couple of days & C25K isn't going to happen:
Weight Loss Goal: Lose 2 pounds
Non-scale Victory Goal:  Lose an inch
*Exercise Goal: 50 sit ups a day
Nutritional Goal: Try something new

~Thought for the day~
We are different people than we
were at this time last year

Monday, March 26, 2012

Weigh In~Week 13

Well, since I'm participating in the Ready for Summer Challenge, I decided to change my weigh in days to Monday (instead of Wednesdays)..just so it'll flow better with the weekly check ins for the challenge. This morning I weighed in at 222 pounds!! Which gives me a loss of 2 pounds since last Wednesday! I am sooo beyond excited with this number, 2 pounds in less than a week~not too shabby, I'd say! All my hard work and tracking is paying off!

Last night was my second day of my C25K~Week 1 and it was a little easier than the first time, I just have to work on the breathing more.

So~here goes my beginning weight and measurements for the Challenge:
Beginning of challenge weight: 222 pounds
Beginning of challenge measurements:
Waist: 41.5
Hips: 50.5
Arms: 15
Thighs: 29.5
Breast: 41.5
Neck: 15.5

Wow! Looking back at my measurements from March 1 2012, I have lost 4 inches! But I have one more week left to get a little more off before my monthly check in :)

Here are my goals for week 1:
Weight Loss Goal: Lose 2 pounds
Non-scale Victory Goal:  Lose an inch
Exercise Goal: Complete week 1 of C25K
Nutritional Goal: Try something new

~Thought for the day~
Do not give up what you want MOST for what you want at the moment!

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Summer Challenge Week 1~Mini Goals

Tomorrow kicks off the Ready for Summer Challenge & I'm supper excited to begin, actually the past week has been awesome work out and eating wise, so this will totally help I think. After all..July and Panama City Beach will be here before I know it!

Here are my over all goals for the challenge:
Weight Loss Goal: lose15 pounds.
Non-Scale Victory Goal: lose 10 inches.
Exercise Goal: To get 50 workouts in on these 70 days.
Nutrition Goal:  1300 calories a day limit.

Here are my goals for week 1:
Weight Loss Goal: Lose 2 pounds
Non-scale Victory Goal:  Lose an inch
Exercise Goal: Complete week 1 of C25K
Nutritional Goal: Try something new

Friday was actually my first day for my C25K training and I lived to tell you all about it, lol! It had it's ups and downs..I fell like if I can get a grip on my breathing that I could do even better, but that's something that I will have to work on. But I'm excited to do it! I've always wanted to run..and what better time to learn than now? I do have my insecurities though~running outside, in my neighborhood, where there  people around every corner that know me live (you know where I am going here)... but surely they have better things to do than to watch a "big girl" wogging (walking/jogging) down the road, right??

~Thought for the day~

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Ready for Summer Challenge

My friend Jamie, over at That what you really look like, came across a challenge the other day and asked if I wanted to join in on the I figured, what the heck..what do I have to lose...absouletly nothing except some weight. Plus summer is right around the corner and vacation will be here before I know it so I think this would be perfect right now!

This (along with a couple of other changes that I'm making, which you can read about in my Weigh In Wednesday~Week 12  post) may be exactly what I need.. because after all I've only managed to lose 8 pounds since January 1, 2012!

This challenge will last 10 weeks, starting March 26th. You set your own goals, and check in weekly. There will also be small weekly challenges, these are voluntary.
Here are the goal categorizes:  weight loss goal, non-scale goal, exercise goal, and nutrition goal. You can choose to do one goal or all goals, it is totally up to you.

So like I said...Summer vacation is coming up, Panama City Beach is just around the I'm going to put my all into this challenge.

Weight Loss Goal: lose15 pounds..but I realize that I'm a big girl with BIG numbers to drop and I think that  I've gotten a handle on things so once I see how I'm doing I may up this number:)

Non-Scale Victory Goal: lose 10 inches. I really think this one is possible if I keep my mind set because Since January 1, I've only lost 8 pounds...but lost 9 inches! (may have to up this one too, we shall see)

Exercise Goal: To get 50 workouts in on these 70 days..Whew this is going to be hard..I've been kind of struggling the past couple of days with my workouts but I WILL do it!

Nutrition Goal:  1300 calories a day limit..that's another doosey..the past couple of days I've been trying not to go over 1400 calories, so this will be a MAJOR challenge

So here is the question...
Are you looking for a challenge to help you in your weight loss?
Need a motivation boost towards the summer?
Need accountability?

Look no more!

This challenge will last 10 weeks, starting March 26th. You set your own goals, and check in weekly. There will also be small weekly challenges, these are voluntary. So..what are you waiting for? Go sign up at Ready for Summer Challenge


Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Weigh in Wednesday~Week 12

Hope everyone is having a great week! This week started of kind of shaky but I just had to get a grip on things. I managed to lose one pound this week. I know it's not alot and it puts me right back where I was at the beginning of this month so I'll take it!

Looking back this past month, I have had alot of struggles~food wise and exercise wise. Time and time again I've felt like I'm not strong enough to do this..And...then today I heard this song:

I feel like this song goes straight to my heart for where I am on this journey...even though the past 2 days have been awesome, I'm not going to lie~they were rough! But I just have to ask the Lord to be strong enough for the both of us.

I'm heading North and not looking back. (I actually have tears in my eyes as I type this listening to the song.)

I also want to share that my blog has allowed me to find someone who is on this same journey as me and has become a great friend of mine.... I'm sure I'd still be struggling if it wasn't for her, but I think I'm on the right path now thanks to her. We have been reading Made to Crave together for the past couple of weeks and comparing notes and texting each other encouraging things~and I just want to say THANK you ! It really wasn't until Sunday night reading when things really began to click..I have to realize that weakness is not defeat... I have to realize that I don't need to have cheat days because this is not another diet, it is a lifestyle change & I am tired of cheating my life..... I need to pray for self control before I ever even sit down for that meal or head out for an outing with friends...and remember I am made for MORE~I am made for VICTORY!! Last night reading..I came across Revelation 3:8~Behold, I have set before you an open door, which no one is to shut.

I have tried to do this on my own time and time again but have failed... but this time I'm doing it different, I'm calling on God, my friends, and my family to help me through this! This is a door that the Lord has set before me and not even I will shut.

~Thought for the day~

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Just a little thought..

As my weigh in day is approaching..I just wanted to share (or pretty much confess) that this weekend I did give into temptation. I ate and I ate alot! Am I mad at myself???..sure. My whole "March madness" thing I was trying to do flew out the window because I could not control myself!

Hopefully you guys aren't too tired of hearing my ups and downs (which there seems to be alot more downs lately, but I'm working on that) & Like I said plenty of times before, it may take me a while to get where I'm going, but I will get there one day :)

Something I discussed with a friend earlier this week when I was really struggling...this is what I need to remember: I don't need to have cheat days because this is not another diet, it is a lifestyle change & I am tired of cheating my life. But something that I can do is allow myself to splurge when I feel like it without guilt (??, we shall see) but do it in moderation. I will need to pray for self control before I ever even sit down for that meal or head out for an outing with friends. ~I am made for MORE~I am made for VICTORY~

And remember we all have our moments of weakness...but keep in mind that weakness is NOT defeat!!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Weigh In Wednesday

Much to my surprise the scale was actually up a pound this morning..which puts me at 225. I've been doing good with my whole "March Madness" (not binging thing) for a week now so I'm not sure where the problem is. It may because I've been eating whatever I cook for my family in small portions (but it's not the healthiest stuff) and I haven't been tracking all of my calories like I should on MFP.

As sad as it is to say....This is how my day went after my weigh in this morning...didn't do my shred video because I was sooo sore from the past couple of days doing then I had a hot pocket for breakfast because at this point I'm thinking what the's not going to make a difference because EVERYTHING that I've been doing is not making a difference....but then I got a grip....went on my morning walk with the girls that I work with, had apple and peanut butter for a snack, sandwich with a pickle for lunch (doing a good job right, trying to recover from the hot pocket)....but then I get home and I'm in a rush to get something on the table for supper so I throw some fish sticks and french fries in the oven but I'm sooo hungry while they are cooking I have a pop tart and once the food is done I have 4 fish sticks and french fries...then after all of this and I have time to digest what I've done...I go on a 1 & 1/2 mile walk.

I'm not sure how to over come obstacles like the ones I had's kind of the story of my great for so long..have a bad day...fall off the deep end.

I'm not giving up...just in a rut

Tomorrow will be better..because I say so :)

~Thought for the day~

Monday, March 12, 2012

FMM: Book Worms

FMM: Bookworms (Revisited) 

  1. How often do you read for pleasure?  I go through phases in which I can’t put a book not reading for weeks..just depends on the mood
  2. Are you currently reading a book?  If so, which one? I'm currently reading Made to Crave
  3. Do you subscribe to any magazines and/or newspapers? No..if I seed something interesting at the check out counter, I'll grab it
  4. Do you prefer reading traditional books or using an e-reader?  E-reader..I have a nook and love it
  5. How often do you go to the bookstore?  once maybe twice a year to do Christmas and birthday shopping for my little boy
  6. Do you read at the gym? No
  7. Have you ever been a member of a book club?  Not a book club per say..but right now a friend and I are reading the same book so that we can talk abt it
  8. Do you wear glasses when you read? No
  9. Has anyone read the Hunger Games?  If so, would you recommend it?  I haven’t read it yet but I hear they are good
  10. What is your favorite thing about reading?  It’s the only "me" time that I get :)
If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section  at: so we can all see your FMM questions and answers.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

March Madness

 Weigh in didn't go exactly as I had hoped this morning...I weighed in at 224 pounds, which don't get me wrong is great because I didn't gain but I would have liked to have lost a little something~but I guess that is what happens when you binge on the weekends..which leads me to my next subject..with all this binging that I've been doing on the weekends~I've decided to come up with March Madness (I know sounds cool right? lol)

This is how I have March Madness planned out:
There is one overall goal for the rest of the month of March that I want to reach~DO NOT BINGE!! Yeap, that's right...I'm challenging myself to go 25 days without binging!! (Complete Madness, right??) But if you've ever been in my shoes you know the feeling that you have after a is HORRIBLE!
Something I'm figuring out is that~I can eat what I cook for my family... I don't have to grill me a piece of chicken on the side to have with a salad every night~I just have to eat in moderation and not over do it.

Today was the first time in a long time that I actually walked away from what could have been an awful binge~someone had brought Reese's PB eggs to the office today & I had one..but I really, REALLY wanted two or three!! It took alot of talking to myself before I over came it & for a second or two I actually thought I was going to start crying..(sounds kind of crazy, right) but it's at times like this that I am at a constant argue with myself...long story short, I thought about how far I've come & I want to move forward, not backwards & I over came it and I'm sooo happy that I did!! Am I beating myself up tonight because I had chocolate today, no because the reality is ...I can have it as long as it is in my calorie range and I don't over do it.

The question of the day~will you join me on this challenge??
There is no prize at the end of the 25 days except for the satisfaction of knowing you can do it!!
That is unless you want to be like me..and reward yourself at the end of the challenge..I'm going to get those volatile sandals that I talked about awhile back:)

~Thought for the day~

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Set Backs

The weekends always get the best of me..Friday night we went to my husband's grandparents house for some boiled crawfish~but I didn't over to it..Then Saturday came and I had already set in my mind that I was going to use Saturday as a 1200 calorie day but I didn't eat anything until supper because it is "that time" for me and I just wasn't feeling good at all..but I made up for not eating much yesterday today. We went to my moms for lunch where we had fried liver and mashed potatoes then for supper we order from a local Drive in restaurant..I had a hamburger with cheddar peppers.

I keep trying to go over in my head why I do this to myself...all week I do wonderful then the weekend comes and it all goes down the drain because of the choices that I make and because I don't have the control to say "No"!

What makes me feel worse is when I get on Pinterest and they have all of these great inspiration weight loss blogs posted (don't get me wrong, I love reading weight loss blogs but it's day's like today that I don't know if I'll ever be one of those that will eventually reach my goal) I read today was about a woman that lost 50 pounds in 6 months..and I can't help but want that to be me!!! But here's the thing..I know that if I keep doing what I've been doing (eating right during the week and then splurging and binging during the weekend) I'm not going to get anywhere!!

I have a supportive husband, family, & friends who that I know I can call on if I needed to but it is kind of embarrassing when you keep failing time and time again. I'm sure they get tired of hearing me, just as I am sure all of you here are getting tired of hearing it as well & I'm sorry...I'm really trying to figure this out.

Goals for the remainder of this week (until Weigh in Wednesday)
 *Have 1200 calorie days Mon, Tues, Wed
 *Walk at least 2 miles each of these days
 *Make time to read everyday
 *Make time to pray everyday
 *Find a Non scale victory in each day

I think that part of my problem my be that during the week I eat Smart One's every day for lunch and for supper I'll cook me something separate from what I cook for my family...but on the weekend I eat whatever they eat & I'm sooo hungry for some good food that I over do it. I'm not trying to make excuses but maybe I need to learn to eat what they eat but in moderation so that I don't over do it on the portions...I don't know...what do you think??

It is days like this it seems like I will NEVER reach the finish line...but I know that tomorrow is a new day & then I remember how far I have come...32 pounds lost!! I'm not throwing in the towel just yet :)

Thursday, March 1, 2012

February 2012 Measurements

Today was another great has been crazy but other than that it's all good. I stayed under my 1200 calories for today~one day down, 2 more to go & I went walking this morning with the girls that I work with before work~so one down there too, 4 more to go.

My measurements for today are:
Waist: 43 (-2)
Hips: 52 (-1.5)
Arms: 14.5 (-.5)
Thighs: 30 (-.5)
Breast: 43.5 (0)
Neck: 14.5 (-.5)
Inches lost during month of February~5!!!
Total inches lost~9

Me~March 1, 2012
Pounds lost since starting blog: 32
Pounds lost since 1/1/12: 8
Inches lost: 9