Saturday, July 31, 2010

Sabotage

A week has gone by already..and what a week it has been! Corbin, my 5 month old has been having diarrhea (so that’s no fun) so I’ve been having to run him to the Dr. But other than that it was a good week.

The boys and I went on a walk every afternoon this week. I wasn’t real sure how long it was so one day Colby and I got in the car and took the route that we walk to measure it. It’s 2 miles!

Now on to some confessions…I weighed in yesterday (even though I usually don’t weigh in until Sunday’s…I just wanted to see what the scale said and if all the walking I have been doing was working). But much to my surprise the darn scale said I had gained 3 pounds! 3 Pounds! What the heck. I was soooo upset I started crying and let it ruin my day! I don’t’ know what I’m doing wrong..I’m staying in my calorie range, I’m walking, I’m drinking A LOT of water, and I never cheat!

So since the scale wasn’t on my side I decided that I was going to have some fried shrimp for lunch and a chicken strip dinner from dairy queen for supper! I know, I know it’s self sabotage but I was so upset I couldn’t help it. I do soo much to lose this dang weight and it’s going to give me a result like that?? But I really do regret it today!

But I’m back on the wagon today and I’m going to do everything I can to lose those 3 pounds before my weight in tomorrow.

And I want to just give a little shout out to my Aunt Mo…Thanks sooo much for keeping the boys last night! You are the best!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Another 2..gone!!

I apologize for not checking in as regularly as I was..Colby (my 9 year old) has being hogging the dang computer! So I have a week’s worth of checking up to do!

Well, today was weigh in day! I did ok..I lost 2 pounds. I know, I know, I shouldn’t be so hard on myself but I can’t help it. My goal this week was to lose 3 pounds, that’s not too much to ask for right?

But the up side is that I finally got Nick to measure me (because I was supposed to do it last week, just never got around to it). I lost a total of 10.5 inches!! That’s pretty exciting! I have gone down a pants size and I can fit into some 20’s but Lawd if I were to sit down in those things the button would probably fly off and blind a person. (lol) But it won’t be too long, hopefully within this next month!

Colby, the baby, and I went on a couple of walks last week. Colby on his bike and me pushing the baby in his stroller. I think we are going to try to do that at least every other day because it gives us both a little exercise.

So, I made Nick take a new picture of me. I’m going to try to do one once a month when I do my measurements.


It doesn’t look to me that much has changed. I mean, sure my clothes are getting a little baggy and my face is slimming down a bit but I still feel as though I look like I am still 9 months pregnant!

My self confidence has always been something that I lack…I just feel huge! But hopefully that too will improve on this journey that I am on. (I guess maybe I am too hard on myself).
Until Next Time..

Thursday, July 22, 2010

My Very First Award!!

This week as been awesome so far and today it got even better thanks to Maggie at http://maggieslosingit.blogspot.com/ for giving me the Versatile Blogger Award! Never in a million years did I think I would get any type of blogging award!!




So every award has rules and here they are :
1. Thank the person who gave you the award.
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Nominate fifteen newly discovered blogs.
4. Let your nominees know about the award.

So first things first..Thanks Maggie so much for the award! (And I just want to let you know real quick-Maggie-that I always try to leave you comments on your blog but they never go through so maybe you could email me your email address for us to keep in touch) :)

Now on to #2
Seven things about me ….(where do I start?)
1. I wasn’t always over weight. In high school I got down to 145 pounds! Then I met my high school sweet heart and the rest is history.
2. I really and truthfully do not enjoy cooking. I do it because I know we don’t need to eat fast food! But all in all, my husband and little boy eat anything I do cook, nasty or not!
3. I am married to the most awesome man! We started dating in 9th grade in high school.
4. If there was anything in this whole world that I could have it would be to have my daddy again, he passed away almost 6 years ago.
5. The best days of my lefe were the days my boys were born and my wedding day.
6. I eat a turkey sandwich with pickle and tomato every day for lunch. (Yea, every day…no lie!)
7. I am determined to do this and I really do think that blogging is helping me on my journey.


And last, but certainly not least here are 15 blogs that I keep up with pretty regularly…and i appoligize for not knowing how to list these without the http stuff because I'm still pretty new at this so if ya'll have a minute, someone can explain to me how to just put it in a regular list.

1. My Stupid Weight Loss Blog
2. http://tracitreasures.blogspot.com/
3. http://fatasiangal.blogspot.com/
4. http://finerthingsinlife-micah.blogspot.com/
5. http://stuffingmyfeelings.blogspot.com/
6. http://www.scalejunkie.com/
7. http://wearelosingitblog.blogspot.com/
8. http://operationsize8s.blogspot.com/
9. http://okjustonemorebeer.blogspot.com/
10. http://inweighovermyhead.blogspot.com/
11. http://hcgwillpower.blogspot.com/
12. http://foodaddict-fromfattofab.blogspot.com/
13. http://alltheweigh2009.blogspot.com/
14. http://365dayswiththe330poundwoman.blogspot.com/
15. http://losingweighteveryday.blogspot.com/

So once again….thanks soo much Maggie. Never in a million years did I think i would get one, lol. It maybe my only one but that’s ok.

Until next time….

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Bye Bye Pounds

I have a few minutes so I figured I’d check in..Corbin in asleep (for now). Quick story that I just have to share. Friday, on the way to the sitters, Colby (my 9 year old) asks me..”Mom, does Corbin have a sore on this back or butt?”, “No, Colb, Why?” “Then why does he always start crying when you or dad put him down?” Lol it was too cute.

So that explains a little why I don’t check in everyday and why some days are shorter than others because family comes first in my life and some days are a lot more hectic than others.

Well, the weekend is over and Monday is nearly here. We had a great weekend! We went to the movies Saturday to see Eclipse. It was great! And NOOO I didn’t have any pop corn, I actually brought a 100 calorie pack in my purse and that was my movie snack. I know you’re not supposed to bring anything food wise in with you, but I couldn’t help it. I’m trying to stay on track and I didn’t want to slip up! After the movies we headed to Izzo’s Illegal Burritos, it was our first time there and it was pretty good! I got a wheat burrito with chicken, mushrooms, lettuce, salsa, beans, and cheese. It was great! (And I have to mention that I said NO to a cheesecake brownie from Great American Cookie Factory!)

Today after church, Nick cooked lunch. We had some rabbit, it was great! It’s not something that we eat too often but I love the way Nick cooks it when we do. After lunch I cut the grass—all by myself again..and no complaining this time, it’s not that bad. Guess I’m getting used to it.

Today was weight in day! Down 4 pounds! WoooHooo!! Barely made my 10 pound goal for the month but I did! I feel great and even though the weight is coming off slow, I think I am losing inches because my clothes are starting to get a little baggy. Hopefully later or maybe even tomorrow, Nick will have time to measure me.

My calories have been right on cue or below, as usual. And I’m proud to announce that I have not cheated one time this whole week!!

My goal for this week coming up is to lose 3 pounds!

Now to think of what I am going to reward myself with for losing 10 pounds…something non-food…sunglasses, pedicure-I’ll think about it!

Until next time….

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Today Was A Great Day

I feel great for some reason even though I have not been exercising as I should but I have been watching what I eat and my calories!

Nick and I are getting ready to make reservations for a cruise next year. I can’t wait! It’s for our 5 year anniversary. I’m so excited you would think we were going next month, lol. But that is part of my motivation…. lose weight for this cruise. I know I may sound like a stupid reason, but it is one of many. Last time we went on a cruise (which was when we got married in 2006)…. I felt like the odd girl. There are so many things that I would have liked to have done that I couldn’t or didn’t. For example….because a lot of the excursions have a weight limit I didn’t do them, I would have liked to go swimming but was not about to get in my swim suit in front of all those people, and dancing. I would have loved to go dancing at the club with my husband but I feel too huge!


Here is a pic from our wedding almost 4 years ago. I'm only 9 pounds away from weighing what I did then! When I get there I'm not going to stop though, I'm goning to keep it going :)

I’m going to have to cut it short today because the baby is waking up from his nap.

But real quick first, my calorie count for yesterday was 1,351.

My calorie count for today is 1,271!

I am putting my mind to this! I can do it!

Oh, and the water challenge is going great! I’ve been drinking 64oz a day!! Wooohoo!!

Until tomorrow….

Monday, July 12, 2010

Not such a good Monday...

My first day of the week did not go so well. Corbin woke up with me this morning so I wasn’t able to exercise. (Partly my fault I guess because he sleeps with us so as soon as I start moving around in the morning he thinks that he has to too, but it’s like I tell Nick-He isn’t spoiled, He is just loved, lol).

I did drink my 64 oz’s of water for the challenge that I am participating in. But the worst thing about today was I skipped lunch and supper to eat some cracklins. For those who don’t know that that is, here is a picture.



Brief description: Cracklins are made from pork skin that consists of skin, fat, and meat. The pork skin is cut up into cube sized peices then dropped into hot hog lard (grease). Then cooked for about an hour. It is then cooled to room temperature and placed into a cooler. Once it is needed to sell, it is taken out of the cooler and placed back into the hog lard until ready to sell.

So basically I ate pork skin and pork fat fried in pig fat! Way to go Sharlie you are such a pro at this while diet thing!! Seriously? What the heck was I thinking? And now I feel like crap!

It’s really hard for me to get on here and admit all my screw ups for the day..I really don’t want to eat and live like this anymore but yet I keep letting myself fall.

I’m not even going to attempt to try and figure out my calorie count for today. Let’s just say it’s A LOT!

Tomorrow is a new day and I will make every effort to get up in the morning and exercise, eat right (no cracklins, that’s for sure), and drink my water.

Until tomorrow….

Sunday, July 11, 2010

To lose or not to lose??

Today was weigh in day. Not a real big surprise…. but I didn’t lose a thing. But the up side I guess is that I didn’t gain either.

It’s just so much harder than I thought. I’ve tried dieting a million times before and have always failed (obviously) but for some reason I thought this time it would be sooo much easier. I had this idea in my head that I’m going to start a blog and it is going to work miracles for me, help me stay on track and lose this weight. And needless to say it ain’t happening!

I really want to just throw in the towel and give up!

But I know I can’t. I need this weight loss so badly and I want it so badly. I want to be able to run around with my kids and not be out of breath. I want to be able to take a flight of stairs at a doctor’s office and be able to talk to receptionist when I’m signing Corbin in (which happened this week-decided to take stairs instead of elevator, and I could barely talk when they asked me something-sad but true). I want to know what it feels like to shop in a normal store-No Avenue or Layne Bryant!
I’ve just got to get my head straight and quit doing everything half way. I’m going to try my best..no better yet-I’m going to set my weekly goals for this week and stick to them.

Walk Away the Pounds-2 miles everyday
Biggest Loser Work Out Video everyday
Gym to do weights, every other day
Drink 64oz of water every day

For those interested I signed up for Positive Effect Water Challenge with Kenz from All the Weight and Sean from The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser. The Challenge is to drink 64 oz of water a day for 3 weeks. Starting tomorrow, July 12 through Sunday, August 1st. Go and sign up if you are interested.



This week I’m going to get up in the morning and exercise. I tried this at the beginning but it didn’t work out so great because Corbin, my 5 month old, thought that he had to get up at the same time as me. But hopefully this time, he will stay asleep so I can exercise. Last week the couple of times that I did exercise, it worked out ok but I’m just going to try the mornings again and see how that goes.

My calorie count for yester day was 1,875 (due to I caved in and had a Blizzard from Dairy Queen-which is part of the reason for losing no weight this week).

My calorie count for today is 1,363. Thanks to my mom for cooking wheat noodles for me today for lunch.

Until tomorrow..

Friday, July 9, 2010

Man, How Time Flys

I have every intention of checking in and blogging daily but life happens and before I know it time has follown by. Just this week at alone as flown by because we had Monday off. I wonder if my boss would consider giving us off every Monday. How nice that would be!

Yesterday after work I decided I would cut the grass. Usually I start cutting the grass in the back yard (because it has a lot of trees and is very shaded) and by the time I get to the front Nick takes over for me. So I got home and got started cutting the grass….and cut the grass…and cut the grass…and my knight in shining armor never showed up.

Pic of my "knight in shining armor" I took one day while he was playing with Colby. lol

I ended cutting the entire front also, which liked to have killed me. I’m not sure if pigs sweat but if they do I sure was sweating like one! When I was done and went in the house for the sitter to leave Colby decides to let me know that his dad called and is going to have to work late. O Really? But it got done.. but I’m not doing it again on a week that he is on call, that’s for dang sure!

After I cut the grass I was so hot I just wanted some ice cream. So I packed up the boys and we were going to Dairy Queen. Then Nick showed up and talked me out of going…thank God because I would have just regretted it!

I can’t explain it, I just have these impulses to eat sometimes! Even though I know I shouldn’t I still want to. If it wouldn’t have been for Nick asking me if I was sure about getting a blizzard from Dairy Queen, I would have went got it!

My calorie count for yesterday was 1,565 and I’m sure I burned some calories, just not sure exactly how many..but I had to have with all the sweating I was doing.

Today for lunch I was suppose to have a dinner date with my wonderful husband but around noon he calls and says he has to go on a road call. No problem I said, I’ll wait to eat until you get back to town. Well, 1 rolls around, 2 rolls around, 3 rolls around, then at 3:30 he calls and says he is back in town if I would still want to go eat. Well heck yea, I didn’t eat lunch! But we decided just to wait for supper and I had a sugar free pudding.

So Nick and I had a dinner date for supper instead of lunch. My little sister, who is 21 years old-but is still my little sister-lol, watched the boys for us to have some time to ourselves. We decided to go to a local Chinese restaurant. I was nervous because I wasn’t sure what I was going to eat. I remember on one of the biggest loser episodes Bob saying to stay away from the noodles, rice, and the fried stuff that they mix with the sauces (the best). So I decided to have broccoli beef. It was good. Not as good as my usual general chicken but I can learn to like it.

My calorie count for today is 1,476. (And I skipped lunch-which I know I should not do but that’s Nick’s fault, lol).

Untill tomorrow...

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Setting Some Goals

I just have a few minutes so this post will be quick post. Hope everyone had a wonderful Wednesday. You know what the best thing about Wednesday is? It’s closer to Friday than Monday was, lol.

Does anyone ever get obsessed with the scale? I’m totally obsessed with the scale this week for some reason. I’ve been getting on every morning just to see how I’m doing. I know I shouldn’t but I can’t help it for some reason. I think it is because of my 1 pound weight loss last week. I was so dang disappointed with that one pound! But I do think I am losing inches because some of my clothes aren’t so tight on me. We shall see on the 21st of this month when I measure again.

I’ve decided to set a couple of short term goals for myself that way, hopefully, I don’t get so discouraged when I think about the 80 pounds that I need to lose.

  • I’m going to eat no more than 1,800 calories a day (which I’m doing already)
  • Exercise at least 5 days a week (struggling with that right now)
  • Lose 10 pounds a month (that’s not too high of a goal is it?)


I may add some goals as time goes on…who knows?


And for every 10 pounds I lose I’ll reward myself with some type of non food item...like clothes or a pedicure.

My calorie count for today is 1,645. Not so bad, below my 1,800 goal to not go over so guess I can’t complain too much. I did not make it to the gym today or do my work out video but will do it tomorrow!

Until tomorrow…

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Back on Track (or so I thought)

What a day it has been! Work was totally crazy today! But the plus side: IT’S TUESDAY!! That means only 3 more days of the work week.

I did manage to go the gym this afternoon and do weights. Then once I got home and had supper cooked Nick watched Corbin again for me so I could do my work out video.. Walk Away the Pounds. I am going to try my best to keep the workouts going and hopefully the pounds will start shedding off!

I slipped up a little today though. When I was cleaning up the kitchen, I was nibbling on the left over’s! What am I thinking?? I watch what I eat all day and work out then I go and do that! What the heck? I just need to really work on my self control! I know better, I really do and I regret it now!

Tomorrow is a new day and I will try even harder not to make the same mistakes that I made today.

My calorie count for today is 1,421 and I burned about 200 calories.

Until tomorrow…..

Monday, July 5, 2010

Seriously?

I’m really disappointed in myself! Weigh in day was yesterday and I was not impressed at all. I lost one pound. I mean seriously? I know I had a cheat day but other than that I did really well!

I was so upset; I let it ruin my whole day yesterday. I ate a toaster sandwich from Sonic for breakfast. (I figured it couldn’t hurt anything.) Then for lunch we had BBQ at Nick’s grandparents (and I had a couple of brownies). But..I did skip supper if that counts for anything. I know that I really shouldn’t binge eat but I couldn’t help it! I was so upset! One pound, are you kidding me?

On the up side I did get a couple of complements that I looked like I was losing weight, so that was nice. I didn’t know that you could tell at just 6 pounds but I’ll take it! (Usually Nick will tell me how good I look and how I look like I’m losing the weight, but I think he just does it to make me feel good.)

Today I got back on the wagon. I was off of work so the boys and I went to Wal-Mart to grocery shop, came home to unpack the groceries, & took a nap with Corbin. Nick cooked supper for me (that’s always nice) and he even helped clean the kitchen. Then after the kitchen was clean Nick took Corbin for awhile so I could exercise. I did a 2 mile walk with Walk Away the Pounds then I did my 30 Day Jump Start Biggest Loser Workout. That kindda kicked my butt. But my butt needs it!

I’m going to try my hardest to keep exercising in the afternoon because when I say I’m going to do it in the morning, it doesn’t happen because I like my sleep too much. So hopefully with the help of my wonderful husband, I’ll get on a schedule of working out.

Calorie count for yesterday was 1,942! Over, I know! But I promise…I will try my hardest to not let it happen again!

Calorie count for today is 1,293 and I burned about 200 calories!

Until tomorrow…

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Really Struggling

Today was another struggle, but what’s new? I think that almost every day is somewhat of a struggle; just some days are harder than others.

I cooked lunch and we had the left over’s for supper. After supper I had to bring Colby to his grand paw’s to pick up his swim suit so I decided that we would go to sonic. I sat there for 10 minutes arguing with myself. I wanted a hot fudge sundae so bad! I kept going back and forth..yea I can get it just this one time..no I shouldn’t get it because I’ve already had a bad day this week and tomorrow is weigh in day. Then I hear Colby in the back seat, “Mom did you press the button yet?” “No Colby I didn’t.” and I continue arguing with myself.

Finally I decided NO I can NOT have a hot fudge sundae. I want this weight loss too bad and have been trying too hard to just eat some ice cream. I decided to get a medium diet cherry coke instead. Pretty wise choice, I think. When we got home I looked up the calories on myfitnesspal.com-the web site that I use to keep track of my calories and my diet coke was 48 calories where if I would have gotten the hot fudge sundae it would have been 520 calories! Who would have thought that a little thing of ice cream could have sooo many calories? I think I made a pretty good decision!

Tomorrow I’m sure will be another struggle because it is the 4th of July and we are going to Nick’s grandparents to spend time with that side of the family, swim, and eat some good food, I’m sure. But I will try my best to make wise choices just as I did today.

Tomorrow is also weigh in day. I can’t wait to see what the scale says!

Until tomorrow…

I can do this!

I’m sorry to say but it is becoming somewhat of a habit of going to bed when Corbin does. I’m so tired from waking up with him the night before, working all day, then coming home and doing my “mommy and wifely” duties that when goes to sleep, I’m right there with him. I started writing this blog last night but when Corbin got fussy I went to lay down with him to put him to sleep and that was it. I was out too! I will try, however to try to check in at least every other day.

I did pretty good Thursday! My calorie count was 1,062.

Friday also was a good day. My calorie count was 1,576. Nick and I went to a local Mexican restaurant. I wasn’t really sure what to eat calorie wise so I got fajitas. I figured that that was the best thing I could order.

Tomorrow is weight in day! I think I did pretty good this week except my one slip up of eating fried shrimp and boudin. I hope the scale is on my side!

Do you ever feel a like you look pretty and then when you see a picture of yourself, you’re like wth? About a month ago I served in a wedding. I felt good, I felt pretty. Everyone kept telling me how nice I looked and my poor husband tells me how beautiful I was so I felt pretty and confident that day. That is until I saw the pictures last weekend! I looked like a big pink cow! Seeing those pictures motivated even more to keep pushing through this! I want to look the way I feel!

Now, don’t get me wrong. I have my days where I feel like I’m the size of a house and nothing fits right or looks right on me. My point is….I want to be able to feel pretty and KNOW that I look pretty!

I want this weight loss soooo bad that I cannot even explain! I’m so tired of being the odd fat girl!

It’s going to happen because I’m working HARD on making it happen! I’m keeping my eye on that prize of mine!

Until tonight (hopefully)….