Getting Some Things Off My Chest & Some Questions

There are sooo many things going on right now...Where do I begin??

• I didn't get to go the gym this morning because my husband is on call this week and he received a call that he had to go out for at 4:15 this morning...so that kindda put a damper on my morning because I downloaded some new "workout" music last night...well actually I tried but couldn't figure it out so my wonderful husband had to help me.
• When I completed my entry on My Fitness Pal for yesterday, it said: *Based on your total calories consumed for today, you are eating too few calories. Not only is it difficult to receive adequate nutrition at these calorie levels, but you could also be putting your body into starvation mode. Starvation mode lowers your metabolism and makes weight loss more difficult. We suggest increasing your calorie consumption to 1,200 calories per day minimum.**If every day were like today... You'd weigh 215.1 lbs in 5 weeks ** Which is ok, I guess...but REALLY?? Are you serious?? I guess it's just going to take time for me to get used to everything, because in my head it is programed that I need to eat less and move more.... but actually the more I move, then the more I have to eat...right?? I don't know if I'm understanding all of this.
• Last Friday, a girl that I work with came in and said something like this...Hey I know you are trying to lose weight, you should try these diet pills, they supposedly work really good...and I told her thanks that I would look into it...then today she asked if I had thought anymore about the pills because she has lost 3 pounds in 3 days..I told her no, not really. I don't know what to do. I've tried diet pills in the past and they NEVER have worked for me and have been a total waste of money & I decided that I would do this on my own this time~no pills, no surgery (I have thought again and again about weight loss surgery but my husband says no, that he thinks I can do it on my own~guess he sees something in me that I don't see in myself), just eat right and exercise! But when she asked me this...it got me thinking, should I try them? Since January 1, I've only lost 4 pounds!
• I'm struggling spiritually. May sound kind of funny..but really I am. I was raised to go to church EVERY Sunday and I've been trying my best to continue and bring my children up the same way...Well, long story short..my priest has told me things about my youngest cutting up too much and being too loud (my 2 year old & our church doesn't have a cry room so I do my best to keep him quiet, but guess it wasn't good enough for him). So after that Sunday that he made those comments to me, I decided that I was going to switch churches, we went to a church across town and it just wasn't the same. It was still Catholic, just wasn't my church and my oldest (10 years old) is set in the ways of our church. So for the past 2 Sunday's We've been going back to our church, but all I do is hold my Godchild and in the back of my head, I'm thinking about how much the priest gets on my nerves/is rude/and how much nerve he (who has no kid & no cry room in the church) going to tell me (a mother that is trying to bring her kids up right by going to church) something like that.... and I pretty much get nothing out of mass....what do I do?? I have no clue!!

Anyway....Yesterday, I decided that I would start on My Fitness Pal..and it's going well, it's just that I don't understand somethings...

For example:

• On My Fitness pal: It says I can have 1200 calories a day http://www.myfitnesspal.com
• On nutrition.com it says: You need 2321.9 calories per day to maintain your current weight without exercise.
  You need 1985.8 calories per day to reach your goal weight slowly and maintain that weight without exercise.
  If you reduce your current caloric intake to 1821.9 calories per day you will lose one pound per week without exercise.
  If you increase your current caloric intake to 2821.9 calories per day, you will gain one pound per week http://nutrition.about.com/library/bl_nutrition_need_results.htm?start=1&pounds_100=200&pounds_10=20&pounds=9&dpounds_100=100&dpounds_10=50&dpounds=0&years=NaN&inches=64&years=27&page=4
• On free dieting.com it says: Fat Loss: 1920 calories Extreme Fat Loss: 1832calorieshttp://www.freedieting.com/tools/calorie_calculator.htm

I just want to make sure that I am doing everything that I am suppose and need to be doing..so if myfitness pal says to only do 1200 calories a day, then that's what I'll do...it's just confusing after reading all the other web sites...ex: how free dieting says 1832 calories for extreme fat loss..does that mean that I'm going to be on a Super Extreme Loss?? So if any one has any feed back on all this, I would greatly appreciate it :)

Totals for today:

• Calories: 999
  
• Carbs:124
• Fat:37
• Protein:49
• Daily Goals: Calories 1200 (1314) Carbs 180 Fat 43 Protein 49
• Remaining: Calories 315 Carbs 56 Fat 6 Protein 0
  

**I burned 114 calories today walking...so had 114 more calories I had to use

**After logging my food and exercise for today, the tracker told me..If every day were like today... You'd weigh 216.1 lbs in 5 weeks...*Based on your total calories consumed for today, you are eating too few calories. Not only is it difficult to receive adequate nutrition at these calorie levels, but you could also be putting your body into starvation mode. Starvation mode lowers your metabolism and makes weight loss more difficult. We suggest increasing your calorie consumption to 1,200 calories per day minimum.
**I don't understand this...I don't feel like I'm starving myself & I'm only 315 calories away from my daily calorie goal**

~Thought for the day~